This was the first time I ever took the girls out for lunch by myself. I guess they were about 9 months old.
This moment was one of the first times I remember feeling confident and relaxed by myself with my own children outside of the house. I had zero expectations of them and myself and we actually had a really lovely time.
In those early days, I had so many expectations of myself (and the girls). Things I thought other people wanted me to be. Ideals I'd created for myself that were far removed from the reality f being a mom of infant twins.
It took me a year and a half to let go of those expectations and begin finding my authentic self again. Man, it was a hard road and a tough lesson to learn! But here we are, almost 5 years on, and I feel true to myself and confident I'm living a life authentic to me. In turn, showing my girls an example of how I want their lives to be.